No Negative Comments! :)

awesome not?
HAHA! brought this for my breakfast today! (Y)
fruity pebbles + blueberry biscuit! SHIOK! :D

anyway, today immunology's faci changed! no more sandy! :(
seriously miss sandy(faci) alot!
our class today super quiet! *dislike! sic ke!
& today I super guility! like seriously.
yellow, blackie, gold, red ask me partial, but I didn`t :/
then I feel like i everytime like a pangseh them, because trng and other stuff. super guility. so paiseh yo. :(
well... anyway! W1 chicken cutlet like a (Y)! shall eat 1 more time! hehehe! :D




after school got trng! :)
on the way to LSR on bus, I reflected alot of stuff.
listening to sad song & thinking alot of thing. ohgosh.
hahaha, sounds emo yo. but yes la somehow. but just wanna keep quiet still :]
anyway, I think i gonna start writing journal already!
all my personal feeling there! sound (Y) yo! HAHA!
anyway, tmrl morning i going to play badminton with rangers! WEE to the max! HAHAHA.
damn excited! :) idk why. HAHA!
9.15 @ gombakk! weeeee! :D



this describle my feeling now! boo. :(
shall not think too much & sleep early!
tmrl is a good day yo! :D

okay! will update real soon?
k, chaos!
with love, Zi Xin ♥

P.S: I thought...& I was wrong. :/

how true is this? i guess 70% 30%? x)
sometimes i want something to stay the same and not change, but i know its impossible, like what the pictures say, feeling fade, people change x), i always thought that particular "thing" will forever stay & not change, but now i know, no. have been reflecting this thing for a long time, but i realize everything has changed in a certain way, just that i didn`t speak it out. i remain in my silent or maybe i chose to let it go by it own way? probably it's better? x) who knows? sometimes I hope that I know everything in this world, so I won't think so much, which makes me always sensitive ya? HAHA, this sound so emooooo. i'm not okay! x)


anyway, today trng cancelled! boooo!
dislikeeeeeee (!)
went out of the house, 241 to boonlay, 157 half-way, then received text say trng was cancelled, then alight & take 99 back home. HAHA. like funny uh! :)
heng now got distance fares, if not expensive to the max yo. 3 bus ride = 1.41. x)
ohmy, i sound abit auntie uh. but still, i save some money! weeee x)
texted brother on the way home, asking whether he want to have breakfast.
alight @ central & brought breakfast home x) i like a good sister uh ^^
okay, sound so zzzz. hehehe!



:D, you wouldn`t understand yo x)


anyway, later going groceries shopping with my brother! weeeeee!
going to buy fruit.juice,yakult,ribena,bread, cereal, SWEETS and etc etc!
kinda excited, wanna make my refrigerator full with thingy x)

okay! will update real soon?
k, chaos!
with love, Zi Xin ♥

p/s: can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars~

hello people, i'm back to blogging :)
just suddenly have the feel on blogging yo.


I somehow need it now. :)
recently have alot thoughts in my mind. but all is just random thoughts?
haha. duno how to explain also? but i will just keep it to myself? :)
just feel like .... it's not the same anymore? :)
anyway, it's okay, just close your eyes, clear your heart & let it go.
it is what I going to do.

now i only need to focus on my studies, family+friends & POLITE`10!
UT3 schedule is already out.

I got 2 UT together in one day (Applied Physics & Material Science)! FAINT.
need to mug hard already! wanna pull up my GPA like seriously! :)
Anyway, module chair have spoke about next semester thing (module selection)
& IEP Industry Experience Program & IIP Industry Immersion Programme during Yr3.
thinking if i am able to go for either IEP and IIP, shld i?
what if it is a rare chance? :/ if i go, i will miss my trng :/
aiyah, no need to think so much now, is far away!
anyway, she also got tell us about Degree thingy (university(!))
i guess i cfm cant go for NTU one, GPA need to have 3.8 leh, how?
now i only 3.05? :(
overseas? was thinking it also.
costly, need to be very independent, alone; duno how to survive, miss home, scare i cant take it & call home to cry. HAHHAHAAH (!)
all this funny thoughts came in.
but i think my parents will want me to get a degree? guess it is better? :)
idk la, hope can at least pull up my GPA now! roar!!!

meanwhile, POLITE`10 schedule is also out liao.
just received from coach~
no fast food, no soft drinks! must resist all temptation from now onwards!

lai RPC, we can all do this together! just wack only! :)


anyway, semester is going to end already! :(
is like going to split with my classmates again! :/
i dun feel like, like seriously.
definitely will miss the RANGERS! :(





how how how? i guess i will miss them sia! like seriously!
miss the disturbing in class & my sic ke sic ke! HAHA!
&& our msg ringtone! :(
ohmyyyy~ hope next semester same class leh! :(
pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :/
sianzx! :(



sometimes i feel i'm so useless! booooooooooo!
like cannot do anything. :/

btw, ytd i have a very OMG dream.
i dreamed about i gotten kidnapped!
like wth, feel so real, woke up tearing abit, wth.
kinda scary! like seriously (!)
sound abit stupid ah~ HAHAHA! duno why i have such a funny dream! LOL totally!


i know abit late ah, but still...
gotten my 1st medal (silver) in canoeing (!)



thanks partner! :D

will update real soon?
shall sleep now, training tmrl~ :)
k, chaos!
with love, Zi Xin ♥

As usual, i going to sort of rant everything out here.
& still, keep some to myself. :)
now, i'm feeling super >:(
i suddenly feeling so stress for my studies, stress about upcoming competitions (K2) and also >:( about f____p.
studies was still alright for me, but UT2 is coming in like 17 days?!?!
I have touch a single thing yet.
UT1 Applied Physics and Chemistry 2 results was out.
gotten surprise result :) C+ and B respectively.
never thought I would score like B. because from Year 1 semester 1, i always gotten like C & D+. but still, must thanks those people teaching me! :)
now, i really feel like doing well to at least pull my GPA up! because wanting to try to enter into university. but I bet it's difficult yes? HAHA.
ayeee, think too early already. :)
sianzxzx, there's PP report needed to do! 2000words leh! i think i should start writing le. :(



NCC 2010

As for upcoming competition, Singapore Internation Water Festival 2010 :)
being chosen by coach to participate in K2 event.
was happy in one side, but also worried in another side.
as usual, you know I got worried easily. dun know why I will like this.
but I promise, I will do my best & give all out :)
& recently, my strokes when paddling is getting bad to worst.
I punch too high, open my hand too widely, abit of lazy elbow. argh! I hate it!
i reminds myself to change it, but after a feel strokes, it goes back to how I normally strokes. abit habit already, but I can`t do this way.
ARGH! i want change i want change!


seriously, a little bit " I Cannot Take It"

As for f___p, i would still keep it to myself 1st.
because I feel that I'm just sensitive already.
or maybe it's my fault that I don't make any effort to do it?
hais. headache.
sometimes i just feel like being izquierdo hacia fuera?
it's like .... i don't know how to explain.
freak it.
decided to run 1 hour tmrl! 30up, 30down!
promised! after my training, I will go RUN & blast the music in my ear! >:(

will update real soon?
shall sleep now, training tmrl~ :)
k, chaos!
with love, Zi Xin ♥

-My head says, "Who cares?" But then my heart whisper, "You do, stupid"

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!! :D
-have you wish your mum & tell her "i.love.you?"
aww, mushy, actually i didn`t do it. find it very rou ma! HAHA!

anyway, back to blogging! :D
school was alright till now. classmates is funnny & nice! :D
I like I like! (Y)
UT is coming, argh, need to like a study lor seriously!
dun want to bad grades then sian again! :(
some more now year2, not easy to score in daily grades. sianzxz
but 2 of facilitator is good like Chemistry 2 & Material Science's! :D
can get A one! (Y)
hehehe! :D btw, immunology is kind of killer for me. argh, stupid biology! :(
but my classmates all aizai, will teach me one~ HAHA! :D

as for training, the RP slope is like a super chui one lor!
because my leg super pain @ front thigh area.
I ran on my right leg, and jump on my leg, *imagine*
look like a monkey jumping around i swearrr. ~.~
last set, i dun care, just chiong up.
end up, my thigh super duper extra pain. i cannot walk properly.
then catherine say : zixin, i teach you how to go down.
then, she pull my hand and run down. waaaa. i shout like nobody business.
HAHA, but that's a fast way. *wriggle brows*
ohya! juniors squad come in already!
super (Y)!
looking @ them, just like looking @ myself when i enter Canoeing.
& sat and sun, some batch came for water training.
when i see them shiver on the boat (T1), is exactly the same when i just got up T1.
i swear i shiver even more that time. :X
they capsize also funny. HAHAHAHA.
actually i enjoyed taking them, like training and stuff. HOHO.
btw, today training is like a (Y)!
i dun have anymore sunday curse - what coach say, from last last sun & last sun.
finally today, he said that i'm good. happy like :D
cause i duno why i always do badly in sun that never met my standard? (what he said luh)
somemore i got twist (Y)! wahahahaha!
the bad thing is i keep bounce on the boat. :(
thinking how should i change this habit. sianzxzx. arghhh!
anyway, NCC'2010 line up already out.
K2 for 3 event - 1000m, 500m, 200m.
scare shit. ~.~
haha! should train super hard for it and not screw it like what I did for NWKC!
PO BI PO BI! hehe!


OH YA OH YA! I GOT ALOT THINGS WANT TO BUY, BUT NO CASHIE NOW. SAD SI LE!

nice leh the slipper! like a cute only!
Yellow - I like :D
White - I like, but very easy dirty :(
Red - Chio, duno suit anot! :(

waaa, this laptop bag ah, i aim super long already. just that rly no $.
sad life ah!!! :(

awww, this short hor, like no more retail in singapore liao.
that time @ vivo got, but XL. sianzxzxz. wa, if i see gt my size, i cfm immedietely buy one lor! haizxzxzxz! :(

chio right this shoe? i so gotta to buy it! HAHA!

is this shoe still selling? like a nice ah the colour! HAHA! :D




okay la, i should go take a rest alreadyyyyy!
having school tmrl! 7 need to wake up! :(



i swear, i'd let it go already :)

alrights, shall blog soon uh! :D
k, chaos!
with love, Zi Xin ♥

As promised, i back to blogging as I have no school today! :D
haha. anyway, i shall start with NWKC, my first virgin kayak sprint race.
as usual, i'm stress about it. but still quite excited about it.
K1 200m - Race 9; 11.23AM

getting more stress and stress when my race is starting.
go down for warm up & stuff and felt okay.
but once i gotten the number tag for my race, things got worst.
I can feel that i'm shivering like -.-
don't know why.
but still, continue to paddle around and tried some bursting sets.
and argh, keep on tapping the water. :/
went up to drink some water before my race starts.
after that went down the race course with catherine.
she told me to race smartly & i get what she meant.
never thought that one of the national team in my race suddenly didn`t turn up.
was thinking that if i can get a 2nd, can straight final as there's only 3 person left in my race.
before the race start, i shiver like nobody business and that girl behind holding on to my boat can feel that i'm trembling. & she told me that: Jiayou, don't shiver.
then i turn & smile to her.
after that, the starter shouted, All boat hold, Start within 10 sec, GO!
off i go, i can heard the girls shouting for me, asking me to JIAYOU all this.
i can heard them right after the start of my race, i felt more nervous and started to feel un-balanced and slap the water lot of time. making my boat slow down alot.
moreover, when I look @ other competitor in my next lane, i admit, i start to lose focus on my race.
& of cause, feeling more stress out. but still, complete my race with the last position & end with a capsize. totally screwed it. :(
safety boat bring me back to pontoon and i started crying like zzz.
i cry like my parents had died or something.
seniors&clique encouragement pull me to on the semi-final.
kelroy & catherine said, "you still have semi-final."
but still, i'm sad, cause i can done better if i'm not that nervous. but aiya :/
beverly tell to to focus on my race, don't look on others for my next race cause it will make me more tense and nervous.
& off to my next race, semi-finals.
before the race starts, catherine told me not to be nervous & we can get into finals together.
when aligning in my lane. i told myself, this time round, i focus on my lane, & don't see others that is infront of me. and once again, the starter shouted the same thing and off i go.
gotten 2nd and got into finals.
boat-control and bev told me that i did a good set for my semi & i shall do the same for finals. aim for timing.
drink some water & off to the starting point with catherine.
then aligning in my lane, saw all the nationals paddlers beside me gotten more tense up.
capsized in between the race and i get more :/ after that, because i lost my focus in between the race and can't save myself from not capsizing.
same old thing, safety boat brought me back to pontoon & quickly i went back to my K4 crew. before that, lynn told me that i still have them for my next race. don't give up, they are always there to back me up, felt touched and went up there to have some cool down for myself.
Race 13; 12:20 - K4 200m

when aligning in our race, i promise myself that I will give all out and die after this race.
and after aligning, starter shouted, Start withing ten seconds, all 4 of us, raise our paddles and burst all out.
though we're last, but i feel that we give all our best already. & seriously, i feel good after k4. :)
after that, asked coach about my race & get to know that i still doesn`t have good stability in zedtech. feel quite demoralize, but aiya, true to what he said. :)
now i know, how much i'm are far away from others paddler.
& i said to myself, i will not give up now and i must be focus in every trainingzx.

Anyway, I want to thanks those who encourage me when I feel most demoralize in my race. :)


As for School, get to know some friend in classzxz. hehehe! :D

school was alright as for now as i'm still able to manage it.
but immunology is giving me a headache in P01. argh, duno how to die as still got 14 lessonzx!! G_G
but there's others that will help me out~ HAHAHA :D


As for trainingzxz, i feel that it's getting more and more intense and time go by.
with seniors around, i feel that it's more good (Y)
i can feel that i keep pumping weights and also getting more focus in every training.
always remember what they and coaches say to us & push harder to exceed our limit each time.
(Y)
btw, sunday training is a booooo.
i felt so weak and cannot focus @ all.
even when coach shout @ me, i tried to pull harder in my strokes.
but still, not good. :/


coach approached me when i finished 1 of the sets, he said
Coach: What happened to you Zixin? Feeling weak?
Me: I don't know ley
Coach: This is not your standard, no strength today?
Me: *I kept quiet*
Coach: Try harder next set.


when next sets finish, there's still no improvement. :(
in between the sets, I can hear Adeline & Joanne keep asking me to keep up with others, pull harder strokes, but my body just don't react with it. sigh.
feel super demoralize. & coach say: I can feel that you're demoralize already, you're easy paddling through the sets. are you okay? i just nodded my head.


before next sets starts, Coach say: Zixin, this is the last set, i want you it give all out. i replied "orh" after hearing coach's motivation to pull harder, I told myself to give all out. pull harder. but still, no improvement shown.
argh :/
went home straight after trainingzxz, because i seriously feel like sleeping.
HOME SWEET HOME & feel sick, a little fever, so sleep all the way until late afternoon.
wake up and saw texts from clarice, aww, so motiving! :D
thanks yo! *SMILE WIDELY*



I just can't "f care what others think" :(


alrights, shall blog soon uh! :D
k, chaos!
with love, Zi Xin ♥

I promise i will blog on tuesday (off.day) :D
- NWKC, School & Trainingzxz.

stay tune yo :D