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As promised, i back to blogging as I have no school today! :D
haha. anyway, i shall start with NWKC, my first virgin kayak sprint race.
as usual, i'm stress about it. but still quite excited about it.
K1 200m - Race 9; 11.23AM

getting more stress and stress when my race is starting.
go down for warm up & stuff and felt okay.
but once i gotten the number tag for my race, things got worst.
I can feel that i'm shivering like -.-
don't know why.
but still, continue to paddle around and tried some bursting sets.
and argh, keep on tapping the water. :/
went up to drink some water before my race starts.
after that went down the race course with catherine.
she told me to race smartly & i get what she meant.
never thought that one of the national team in my race suddenly didn`t turn up.
was thinking that if i can get a 2nd, can straight final as there's only 3 person left in my race.
before the race start, i shiver like nobody business and that girl behind holding on to my boat can feel that i'm trembling. & she told me that: Jiayou, don't shiver.
then i turn & smile to her.
after that, the starter shouted, All boat hold, Start within 10 sec, GO!
off i go, i can heard the girls shouting for me, asking me to JIAYOU all this.
i can heard them right after the start of my race, i felt more nervous and started to feel un-balanced and slap the water lot of time. making my boat slow down alot.
moreover, when I look @ other competitor in my next lane, i admit, i start to lose focus on my race.
& of cause, feeling more stress out. but still, complete my race with the last position & end with a capsize. totally screwed it. :(
safety boat bring me back to pontoon and i started crying like zzz.
i cry like my parents had died or something.
seniors&clique encouragement pull me to on the semi-final.
kelroy & catherine said, "you still have semi-final."
but still, i'm sad, cause i can done better if i'm not that nervous. but aiya :/
beverly tell to to focus on my race, don't look on others for my next race cause it will make me more tense and nervous.
& off to my next race, semi-finals.
before the race starts, catherine told me not to be nervous & we can get into finals together.
when aligning in my lane. i told myself, this time round, i focus on my lane, & don't see others that is infront of me. and once again, the starter shouted the same thing and off i go.
gotten 2nd and got into finals.
boat-control and bev told me that i did a good set for my semi & i shall do the same for finals. aim for timing.
drink some water & off to the starting point with catherine.
then aligning in my lane, saw all the nationals paddlers beside me gotten more tense up.
capsized in between the race and i get more :/ after that, because i lost my focus in between the race and can't save myself from not capsizing.
same old thing, safety boat brought me back to pontoon & quickly i went back to my K4 crew. before that, lynn told me that i still have them for my next race. don't give up, they are always there to back me up, felt touched and went up there to have some cool down for myself.
Race 13; 12:20 - K4 200m

when aligning in our race, i promise myself that I will give all out and die after this race.
and after aligning, starter shouted, Start withing ten seconds, all 4 of us, raise our paddles and burst all out.
though we're last, but i feel that we give all our best already. & seriously, i feel good after k4. :)
after that, asked coach about my race & get to know that i still doesn`t have good stability in zedtech. feel quite demoralize, but aiya, true to what he said. :)
now i know, how much i'm are far away from others paddler.
& i said to myself, i will not give up now and i must be focus in every trainingzx.

Anyway, I want to thanks those who encourage me when I feel most demoralize in my race. :)


As for School, get to know some friend in classzxz. hehehe! :D

school was alright as for now as i'm still able to manage it.
but immunology is giving me a headache in P01. argh, duno how to die as still got 14 lessonzx!! G_G
but there's others that will help me out~ HAHAHA :D


As for trainingzxz, i feel that it's getting more and more intense and time go by.
with seniors around, i feel that it's more good (Y)
i can feel that i keep pumping weights and also getting more focus in every training.
always remember what they and coaches say to us & push harder to exceed our limit each time.
(Y)
btw, sunday training is a booooo.
i felt so weak and cannot focus @ all.
even when coach shout @ me, i tried to pull harder in my strokes.
but still, not good. :/


coach approached me when i finished 1 of the sets, he said
Coach: What happened to you Zixin? Feeling weak?
Me: I don't know ley
Coach: This is not your standard, no strength today?
Me: *I kept quiet*
Coach: Try harder next set.


when next sets finish, there's still no improvement. :(
in between the sets, I can hear Adeline & Joanne keep asking me to keep up with others, pull harder strokes, but my body just don't react with it. sigh.
feel super demoralize. & coach say: I can feel that you're demoralize already, you're easy paddling through the sets. are you okay? i just nodded my head.


before next sets starts, Coach say: Zixin, this is the last set, i want you it give all out. i replied "orh" after hearing coach's motivation to pull harder, I told myself to give all out. pull harder. but still, no improvement shown.
argh :/
went home straight after trainingzxz, because i seriously feel like sleeping.
HOME SWEET HOME & feel sick, a little fever, so sleep all the way until late afternoon.
wake up and saw texts from clarice, aww, so motiving! :D
thanks yo! *SMILE WIDELY*



I just can't "f care what others think" :(


alrights, shall blog soon uh! :D
k, chaos!
with love, Zi Xin ♥